ain...

well, cari gali semua post kat blog dia.. i found something. she copy.cat+paste ape yang aku text her bila we fought abaout ice. i used called her papan buruk. waa mulut aku memang tahap gler lazer. now i realize how much how deep she hate me. maybe more more than i hate her.

you guys won't ever see me again after this during reunion...mmg aku takkan pegi...please erase me in every of your memories...tak berbaloi anggap orang macam aku ni kawan korang..Goodbye, everyone....

tue ayat yang aku baca kat blog dia.... so never mind. pejam mata and anggap semua da takdir. i already lost u so memang tak kan dapat balik. now just remind myself.. stop missing her. stop rasa nak jumpe. stop rasa nak peluk dia. she already hate u and forgot u.. she just put all the blame on me.

she never realize how much i counted on her. how much i love her. sejujur nya. aku sangar2 suka dia. she just pure.. dulu. aku anggap dia macam tue. i hate so much when she said 'how sweet...sweet nye aku + ice'. i thought she always want the best of me. then i thought she want to destroy me cause daa tak tahan menyampah dengan aku. 

masa tue aku tak pikir panjang. eman told me what ice thought about me. eman cakap ape yang ain text ice. ice cakap..........maaf, aku tak sanggup nak ulang. its hurt..so much. thats why masa tu aku benci ain setiap saraf cell idup cell mati dalam diri aku.

i thought she betrayed me. maybe yes maybe never. i never knew the truth.

i lost both of u. betul cakap kau ain.. cakap man.. ice hate me cause tak tahan perangai aku. pointer at wrong situation. serkap jarang and never want to hear any explanation. well, i live my life so empty. tapi bukan kerana nie. cause family.. ain, u never knew it. never felt it. someone..who u believed the most betray u. at the some moment u lost u precious abah, mama  buat hal.. mama cam nak buang abah. u never knew it. yup aku gila. irrational. mulut longkang. i admitted it. but most... nope.. semua..all of u never realize how meant u all to me. how much i love u.

sampai sini je la ain... i hope no more haunting me. u equal.same.fair. who's lynn in ur life? maybe lynn just someone yang kau kenal zaman skula. budak seklass sebelah. budak yang bilik nye opposite dengan bilik kau. erm..budak memek suka buat hal. maybe.

maybe sampai mati kita tak kan jumpe. both of us hold the same grudge. i guess dib pun hate me same. sah dia anggap aku yang buruk. cakap laser gila kat ain. tapi xpe.. bia la. as long as aku tau ape yang da berlaku.

semalam tak tak sama dengan hari nie.. u taught me something ain. what is friendship. what is love. what is 'berrrkorrrbann". what is susah senang bersama. yep, u had. 

tapi ingat. i never never ever lupa ape yang kau buat.ape yang kau da korban kan untuk aku. aku sentiasa ingat kebaikan kau. siapa la aku di utm if bukan kerana jari kau yang press keyboard isi upu untuk aku.

thankz for everything ain. halal kan la setiap makan minum meggi ke ape2 yang pernah kita share ain.