again, beribu words play in my mind.. tapi satu pun tak terluah. as usual suka blog walking. tersinggah kat blog encikmimpi. jumpe satu entry, BFF. satu entry yang buat most orang baca rasa something. agaknya betul sangat teori dieb, teori 500days of summer. we cant be friend, just friend with different gender?

eman used to tell me, i care for him more then his gF do, same goes with him. eman and anas, the biggest influence of my life. dont worry, i still breathing without u. aku dah kuat. dah lali, pejal, pegun. since i lost mama, nothing impossible. dulu aku memang sangat ego. dumped someone cam makan choki choki je sesenang. tapi after that meraung dalam hati sakit. sekarang i dont care, if u love me stay.. if u hate me..just go. i will always love u, always!!! every second that i breath..i will always remember all of u. but to chase u, there's no "chase u" in my dictionary. just go.

like encikmimpi, he always missing his BFF, longing~~ cuma tak mampu nak cari balik that girl. tak mampu nak bagitahu face to face. same goes with me. orang yang mengalami benda sama je tahu. rasa sayang tahap gila para beku kutub timur tapi itu bukan rasa cinta. ape beza sayang, cinta, suka..aku pun tak tahu. yang aku tahu, aku pasti siapa aku sayang, siapa aku cinta, siapa aku suka. and the most important thing, aku kenal siapa aku benci. the one that i hate the most is the one i love the most.

eman, anas, tak kira la berapa tahun akan berlalu. tak kira la kat mana jua korang bertapak sekarang, i stay love u the same, as kawan. kawan baik. i guess both of u knew who the lover of my life. one-sided love right. even dah lama kita tak jumpe tak sembang tak mengarut karang cerita dongeng, but there's part of me always want to believe that one day... one fine day we can be friend like before and care for each other with no stupid fool silly feeling. just pure like 7 years ago.

500days of summer theory.
tak tahu la betul ke tak. but it seems like BENAR.
dieb and people around me keep told me that no such BFF words in boy-girl relationship. different words but same meaning. i never fall for them. my heart still longing and stuck for ice. cuma sayang yang amat tahap baban babun cipanzi pada diorang.