helpless. really miss u.

msg cha cakap me rindu abah. today his birthday. tak tahu la whether stress banyak keje or me over sensitive.

me  : rindu abah sangat. today his bday
ca  :  aha, 27/may
me  : abah sihat?
ca  : terlebih sihat. makan banyak, makin degil, kencing merata. kuat.
me :......................................

it's hurt. amat. aku tau aku tak pernah jaga abah cam cha jaga. but hearing that words really made me...............indescribable. seolah olah diorang benci menyampah treat abah. cha, adik paling banyak berbakti jaga abah. tapi please watch ur words. abah, maaf el tak jaga abah. el penting kan diri. asyik lari sini sana. maaf. head over heels. maaf.
tak nampak jalan penyelesaian. even if aku kaya aku tak mampu jaga abah cam cha adik jaga. even dah keje, adik n cha still kena berkorban jaga abah. we just cant pass him kat bibik. siapa bole sabar jaga insan "sakit" cam dia.?
maaf head over heels dik..cha, just maaf.