12/03/2008

12march2008.............dulu but now? 12 march 2012...

da 4 tahun berlalu... rasa macam semalam je benda tu berlaku. aku dia.kami mereka semua. 

empat tahun lepas, dunia riang ria kanak-kanak. heaven.

empat tahun lepas, aku tengok muka abah mama mami keciwa dengan aku.

empat tahun lepas mama syak i fall for ice...

erm..sudah 1461 days....

 12/03/2008 last day aku jumpe dia. last day jejak kaki kat skula...

12.03.2008 lepas pergi amik result spm.... hampir terkedu terkelu menangis tersandar tepi surau bila dapat result yang overdose cun.. abah, maaf..el hampakan abah..maaf...el bukan niat nak sakit kan abah. u knew me right. el just random memberontak..coz u all hantar i pergi penjara tue.

mama syak i chentacintun ice...bila tetiba aku yang ngah menangis..bole gelak bole senyum automatically when he came to me...menangis coz dapat result yang superb rosak and smile coz he talked to me first... and after 3 months i didnt saw him. 

rupa nye da lama benda tu berlalu. da lama aku tinggal kan skula. da lama riwayat hidup..or telenovela aku+ice da tamat. cuma aku yang still tak berganjak still stuck HERE!

x kira berapa bakul air mata aku keluar kan...he already taken by HER.

sakit sangat.... waaaaaaaaa da lama upe nya aku bodoh kan diri aku? entah bila aku nak keluar dari bayangan nie? entah bila? wonder....

ice, from october...2006..since u share pc with me..n i listened to westlife song... from that moment i fall for u... day by day..link by link.. it grow up.. i never knew that i really like u... and i never knew that i was losing u..

i love u more like i did before..
u..the one that got away... the one that i miss alot.
u the one who made my life so empty...lifeless..
its so ok.. if u dont want to come back..coz u never belong to me.. but please..come..as my old classmate. just befriend. itu pun da cukup.. sound like i so desperate right? tapi.. u never knew.. how i feel about u... how u are in my liver? u never knew it..

1461 without u..then if i can live without u before...then i can live without u again...
but...still breathing with ur memories..
i miss u alot my geng betik....
i dont hate u.. just merajuk..jauh hati..just...


i tried so hurt..listened to sad songs... but i just cant cried..please someone hurt me... inside of me...meletup.. coz overdose pretended... i was ok..
i lost everyone.. i have no one. just bie+pipah.

gud nite sayang.. hurt!!