cool?

I want to run to you but still..................................

It's so hard, but I try to act cool, as if nothing's wrong

If I could get rid of this affection,

if I could get rid of this hatred

I realized too late I'm sorry.

now im apologize ..so sorry to myself my heart my life. Sorry! Cause my ego, I hurt myself.  I stuck here, living in the past. Hoping he’ll turn back and see how much he meant to me. And I wish I could take back my word, stop cursing at u. and most important I hope I can be honest dengan diri sendiri. Jujur and tau ape sebenarnya dalam hati nie. its hurt so bad. pretended cool and act like nothing.