he was died.

tak tahu ape nak taip, tapi aku rasa amat tersumbat tak bole voice it out. laki mama already pass away...yesterday. dont know cause of what. mama didnt told me...anything. just abang and yaya text me. maybe diorang tak mahu drama so sengaja dont inform me. hirau kan kisah her husband died. lisa said me betul2 degil and keras. she know nothing about my life. she always saw me as bright as sunlight. tapi semalam before jawab test i told her.." my stepfather was died" she like? hah... u got 2 daddy? she so blur. like her expression. she asked me nak balik or tak.. where's the fire? he was nothing to me.
ok.drop that topic. sekrang masuk topic yang buat aku stuck, blank, empty, blur. kosong.

masa kat studio design..she called me. pelik. why? erm.. istifhar panjang aku nak menaip. she called me kalut urus pasal harta that guy. nauzubillah. betul ke nie mama aku? belum cukup 24jam laki dia di kebumikan dia sibuk nak cash account laki dia. hell!! dah la mintak aku tolong. suruh pulak fara n ayah dia. simpang malaikat fara n ayah dia nak tolong urus sendiri ur dirty job. . then keep called me. ya ALLAH bukak kan la pintu hati ibu ku. harta anak yatim tu. blank.

buat masa nie aku tak mampu pikir ape ape. sangat kosong. esok test rc design. tapi aku tak tahu nak buat ape. hanya ALLAH je tahu ape aku rasa sekarang. bie said i think to much. bie, aku tak mampu nak tenang bie. pikir mak aku jadi tamak haloba gini. tgsu yang warm, caring, loving dulu dah lenyap. i already lost her. betul2 hilang.