something wrong with u el. u listened to slow songs. u listened to hindi song. u ate non stop. something unbalanced? bie. heal me please. remember previous post, aku cakap nak bagi space and jauhi bie? erm.. x menjadi she called me. text me as usual. bff. well. siap bincang nak pergi mana next week. haha. she my everything now. she give too much happiness and warmth. if and only if dia laki? our relationship tak akan kekal macam nie. mesti jadi cam eman and anas. hang.

i tried so hard to be positive. tried to think like abang did. tried to forgive like yaya did. but i guess i cant. tu semua something we cant change. maybe slow-slow. semalam punyer semalam achik called. achik..anak ayah yang ketiga. bla bla bla..random talk pasal sambung study, then tetiba...................

achik : k.elynn.. tujuan sebenar achik call bukan nak tanya sal tadi
me    : then saje rindu?
achik : (giggle) just.. nak mintak maaf for everything
me     : raya lambat lagi la sayang.
achik : im serious now kak.... just cakap u forgive me. maaf.
me     : ye ye 0-0 ok. tapi u never did something hurt me. why mintak maaf?
achik : rasa bersalah. i talk too much about u. mngumpat. membebel. merunggut.

bla bla bla, borak sampai lenguh. then aku cakap. ye k.elynn maafkan. aku cam pending. maybe dia stress study. achik seorg yang serious bab study. salah satu reason kami cam tak sependapat. kami selalu gaduh since 4 tahun lepas cause study. dia cam marah me malas study. aku tak bebel adik2 dropped school. aku ponteng sekolah since kecik. bermasalah. aku suka pakai sesingkat. short + single. dia tak suka. tapi he still cared for me. amik hantar aku practical. tak bagi aku lintas jalan. tak bagi aku menunggu. he like a abang even younger than me. dalam seminar bebosan buat aku pikir panjang. why he react like..pelik? selalu called just main main or tanya sal study. pelik. then text ppah. ppah cakap. maybe he said something kat ayah? then ayah jauh dari aku? dont know. clueless. i just pikir stress case. dulu non anak ayah jealous relationship me and ayah. now? tak tahu. everyone changed. termasuk ayah. but im ok. u knew me right people. once u dump me. i'll never turn back. if i come back.. it take lot of time and effort.