u can call me stupid, idiot, insane, but i cant move on. i cant accept that i was losing him.
my mind still pretend that he still there, here...
im sorry. B, ampun. i cant be honest. i just.......cant tell u how i feel for him. i know, me..gigantic idiot..juara segala akal cetek. tapi B, what can i do if hati aku degil?
Im sick. Im tired. bodoh tanpa melampau. tipu diri sendiri.
Am I wrong? waiting for u? Even i know...already knew it, u wont come back? Maaf wahai hati, maaf wahai usia....8 years of waiting but nothing. Always mimpi tentang dia, a dream. a sign that i should walk away. Nothing lead to u, nothing i can do. U just a dream i cant make it as reality. Just a sweet sour dream.
Ice, can u do me a favor?
please go... just quietly go..disappear, dont come back. Pls dont reply my text. Pls. i need a solid, concrete, steel reinforcement reason to hate u, hate u my wholehearted. Im not..like simply give up, but 8 years waiting for someone already "died", its absolutely insane + idiot. i want to be happy like before, i want to live a good, nice & meaningful like. I want to experienced, taste..i want to go through meaningful + wonderful life as claim & proud of my boss, Bl.
"i hope one day.. u'll be in luv, then u will know how wonderful + colorful love is"
-BL, 2013-
I want a happy, simple life ice. Im getting old. we aged. i have no energy to play the games.
Maybe, u should go..pls. i want to smile again.
Until now, i still longing..miss..love u the same ICE.
-ICENA, 24092014
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