there're lot of things happened but tak sempat nak updated.. so busy. super duperb penat dengan pangkat or status as final year student. lab seem yak! messing around. play around be dirtied with C and lisa.. im happy. totally happy with them. even it's so tired to pretend and 24 hours wearing mask. im fake. laugh non stop with u. but inside im break into the pieces.
lepas balik dari umah chek, cam biasa hantar makanan bilik lisa. guess what? she bought me something yang tak pernah orang bagi. she bought me tudung. 2 helai. yak. siap iron. bie cakap if aku tak insaf tak tahu la.  non muslim friend and amat amat kuat pegangan christian gave u scarf . ape kamu rasa? waaa, terharu + pending. pikir the reason behind that presents. entah. lately amat penat sampai tak tahu nak pikir ape. and last night abe text me. " msg mama, she not doing well". aku elak cakap sal mak aku. selagi tak sentuh hal mak aku aku tak down. i really hate her now. bie paksa me text her. so lepas 24 hours aku pun ikut la perintah diorang. erm.. but things messed up. i hate her more than everything. more than before. aku tak tahu ape mahu di karang di tulis di taip di sini. tapi seumur hidup aku tak pernah jumpe manusia tak tahu malu, manusia selfish, manusia tak reti dek untung. muka tebal, bajet bagus. i really hate her now. aku tengah control diri aku dari taip kata makian cacian at my own mum... tapi helpless i guess. rasa mahu meletup sekarang.
better i stop it now, before aku topup dosa dengan makian tak guna at her. ape ape pun. i dont mind. dont care. u and me.. putus. i have no mum. and u have no daughter. done. u did too much. u treatet my abah like beggar and insane person. and u still want me to respect u? sorry. im not a stupid one like others. just throw me away. the day u leaved us i really nekad tekad. there's no turn back. maybe abang adik ca terima u ma.. but for me. i just have a little family. abah, adik abe ca.. no more uncle or others. u already 'gone' and dont come back.